Today marks my first official Mother’s Day with the girls. As happy as I am, I can only think about how their mother must feel. Although she isn’t fit to properly care for, or protect, these two little girls… she still has feelings.

Receiving the girls’ artwork from daycare was awesome. In years prior, it was a mixed feeling. You’re happy to receive these gifts.. but you know down deep you aren’t their “true” mother. I would always save a portion of the gift and send it to Pam. It was an awkward moment I’m sure… seeing materials and sayings on the artwork that was pretty obvious it was meant for me not her. I am sure it broke her heart more than it already was. Remembering it was her decisions and behaviors that put her children in this position….is easier said than done.

Happy Mother’s Day